My sweet baby boy was born on June 23, 2010. Judah Timothy Kenneth Lindstrom was 7lbs 10oz and 21 inches long.
As many of you know, I had high hopes of a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean). My doctors were extremely supportive of my plan...they never gave me any limits or ultimatums. But at 9 days overdue, my doctor was concerned that I hadn't made any progress. I wasn't dilated, effaced or even softening. Everything was very much in tact. My doctor was concerned...and recommended we schedule a section. We came to an agreement and scheduled it a few days after my appointment (with hopes that labor might actually start!).
I felt like a bit of a failure...not being able to achieve the VBAC I longed for. With the support of friends and family, I came to grips with the fact that I'd have another section, and the night before the big day, I laid in bed and prayed that God would give me peace. Sure enough, I woke up at 4am on the day of my section with complete peace. My anxiety was gone...as though God was assuring me that this was right.
We went in, got prepped and went into surgery. I kept myself very present...making sure I was focused and remembered everything. This was the day of my son's birth after all :-) At 8:13am, my doctor gave Jon and I the heads up that our baby boy would be born any minute. As he went in to pull him out, he noticed that the umbilical cord was wrapped around Judah's neck...not once, but twice. He freed him and delivered him healthy and safe :-) Once cleaned off, Jon brought him to me and we were given a good five minutes with him. The most euphoric five minutes of my life...in those moments, I was able to bond with my boy.
While in recovery, my doctor told me he believes that the reason I never went into labor on my own was because the cord was around Judah's neck so many times. Had I gone into labor...the strain of pushing Judah out with the cord as it was could have done serious damage to him. Our decision was right...and God's peace wasn't for nothing! The section saved his life :-)
Everything about my labor experience felt like pieces of a perfectly planned puzzle being put together. I experienced that euphoria after birth...something I didn't think was possible with a section. And to know that this was the way he had to be delivered in order to be safe and healthy...makes all of it totally worth it.
We are so in love. Alivia is head over heels...and has needed no time to adjust. She loves her brother! Judah has slipped right into our family flawlessly...as if we had his seat reserved :-) He eats well...sleeps well...and loves his momma! He has certainly become my little koala bear. Thank you Lord, for this amazing blessing.