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I love Jesus Christ and devote my life to following Him. I'm madly in love with my husband jon. I'm the mother of the most perfect babies in the world. I'm a Senior Sales Associate at my beloved Anthropologie. I'm a reader, thinker, lover, believer and traveler. I'd trade in the chicago skyline for the pacific coast any day. i love a good vino. i love my books. i'm creative as creativity goes but always wanted to be a painter. i prefer letter writing over emailing. And I always try to be a kinder person.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

A Moment of Honesty...


Alivia will be 16 months old on August 14th. 

I always thought that having all my children quickly one after another was the best option. I was 24 when Alivia was born...and the idea of doing all of the "dirty work" that comes with a newborn and being done with it before I turned 30, seemed smart. But when Alivia turned one, I realized that taking the time to enjoy Alivia...and not rushing into having another baby, was right for us. I love spending my days with her. I love dedicating all of me to her...watching her grow...every single moment. This gets hard to do when you are tending to a newborn 24/7. Opportunities to spend one on one time with your older child don't happen nearly as often. So, Jon and I decided to wait. Ideally, I'd like Alivia to be 3 years old before we add a new baby to our family. 

But these days, 5 of my friends are pregnant. My best friend Liz is pregnant, and I'm blessed to have her sharing her journey with me. Every day that she writes me with news of how she's feeling and changing has me reminiscing about the days when I was pregnant. I loved being pregnant...I loved every single moment of it, yes even the crappy first trimester. And believe it or not, all this pregnancy around me has me wondering if I could handle another baby right now...and if I'd be willing to sacrifice all that I decided to wait for. Of course, Jon is always up for the idea...if it were entirely up to him, we'd have a litter by now.  

The truth is that no matter what, if we did get pregnant right now, it would be a great blessing we would enjoy as much as we did Alivia. But the question is...should we try to get pregnant right now? Will I ever really feel "ready" for another baby? The good Lord knows I'm prepared...I've got the tools, I've got the experience and I most definitely have all the support anyone could ever need...but am I ready? Are we ready? Or is that a stupid question?

4 comments:

Jon said...

I'm not sure I "agreed" to anything... :)

lots 'O love...

j

Lindsey Lindstrom said...

Oh yes you did agree my love...hahaha.

Leanne said...

Ahhh, with 5 girlfriends pregnant I don't know if I can see you waiting until little Liv is 3 years old {if we're being honest here}. But, do what feels right for you and Jon. Maybe that's now. Maybe you wait a bit. You can only plan so much and the rest is in HIS control.

At times, I'm a bit too independent. I'm learning to relax.

See you soon...

vana chupp said...

Lindsey...
I share your thoughts at the moment. And even though we aren't doing anything to prevent having a sibling for Niko, sometimes i wonder if the good Lord has it planned this way for us. Do as you feel dear, and like you said, if it comes you will know what to do.
Cheers...so glad you have blogger....