A Moment of Honesty...

Alivia will be 16 months old on August 14th. 

I always thought that having all my children quickly one after another was the best option. I was 24 when Alivia was born...and the idea of doing all of the "dirty work" that comes with a newborn and being done with it before I turned 30, seemed smart. But when Alivia turned one, I realized that taking the time to enjoy Alivia...and not rushing into having another baby, was right for us. I love spending my days with her. I love dedicating all of me to her...watching her grow...every single moment. This gets hard to do when you are tending to a newborn 24/7. Opportunities to spend one on one time with your older child don't happen nearly as often. So, Jon and I decided to wait. Ideally, I'd like Alivia to be 3 years old before we add a new baby to our family. 

But these days, 5 of my friends are pregnant. My best friend Liz is pregnant, and I'm blessed to have her sharing her journey with me. Every day that she writes me with news of how she's feeling and changing has me reminiscing about the days when I was pregnant. I loved being pregnant...I loved every single moment of it, yes even the crappy first trimester. And believe it or not, all this pregnancy around me has me wondering if I could handle another baby right now...and if I'd be willing to sacrifice all that I decided to wait for. Of course, Jon is always up for the idea...if it were entirely up to him, we'd have a litter by now.  

The truth is that no matter what, if we did get pregnant right now, it would be a great blessing we would enjoy as much as we did Alivia. But the question is...should we try to get pregnant right now? Will I ever really feel "ready" for another baby? The good Lord knows I'm prepared...I've got the tools, I've got the experience and I most definitely have all the support anyone could ever need...but am I ready? Are we ready? Or is that a stupid question?